Yea okay, im going to change my blog address to legod.wordpress cause i want to categorize my posts and i have too many uncategorized posts here but i still like to keep this in my archive!
Also, i checked my blog stats and my highest reader views were 55 in a day which isn’t a lot so the people who love my blog won’t have too much trouble…the new account is legod.wordpress
When i first broke into Courage, my life sort of expanded with all sorts of things to be pursued. I can’t exactly remember, but i have a feeling that at that time, i became really interested in psychic-ish stuff like astral projection, out of body experiences and most significantly lucid dreaming. Aha, i had fun times with lucid dreaming but when i got stuck on being a liverpool footballer, all other interests started melting away. I remembered i had one out of body experience for about 5 seconds, then got scared and wussed back into my body. And then another time i thought i had an OBE, then heard my mom knocking on the door, went back into my body, and found out it was a dream and that no one was at the door. And of course, lucid dream sex, flying, becoming invisible, taunting people.
It was like i had tunnel vision when i became hooked on the goal, only thinking of getting there, being it. I didn’t consciously notice it, but the fun and joy drained out of my life and i quickly lost interest in those psychic stuff. It took lots of suffering until somehow i stumbed upon The Power of Now. To think of it, i think my spirit guides must have made me read the book. At that point, i didn’t even know what the book was about, i had no interest in enlightenment, but i just happened to read it and it hooked me from the first paragraph to the end.
Ahhh, it was a tough ride then. I took one month or so to really get into it, to pull out of my egoic patterns. Funny how it clashed with the footie season…maybe it was meant to. In a recent friendly game i played in…i didn’t feel the ego come up again and i enjoyed myself a lot more than in all the past matches. I didn’t enjoy the entire game, but parts of it were really exhilarating. Like, when we strung some neat passes together, from wilson, to gino the centerback, to me, to wincoln who tracked back to offer the option, and because he was being closed down from behind, he switched it back to wilson who was under no pressure. Whoo, that felt awesome.
And other times, i was really unsure of what to do and decided to heck with it and dribbled the ball successfully and in those dribbles, i felt i was flyinggggggg, there was a sense of excitement and fright, of losing the ball, of dribbling, but when i completed the pass after the dribbles i felt a sense of exhilaration and joy.
Now, when we weren’t stringing passes or when i wasn’t dribbling…the game felt normal, not extremely enjoyable or anything but hey, the pressure, the anxiety seemed to have mostly melted away. When i got the ball and didn’t see any option to pass to, those were the times where i was like “wtf what to do with the damn ball” but those were the few scary times. I didn’t not want to play, like i did in the past. I wasn’t playing with an abundance of joy, but at least it wasn’t with dislike, displeasure, and a nagging feeling of not really wanting to be there.
And i’m not going to hope it stays there. It will be whatever it will be. If i feel anxious, scared, or begin to hate the game again, so be it. When it happens, it happens. No problems, all i might do is play less optimally, get more scoldings, maybe dropped out of the team…that’s the worst that could happen! And really, its not much! See, what freedom! Not needing to feel perfectly happy, not needing to be not unhappy, not needing to feel anything. Just go along and accept whatever comes. How would i play if i was realy enjoying the game, feeling really confident? It would be, as it would be and i don’t need to try to improve it.
So anyway, the lightness of life has floated back into my life and with this insight, this learning, this experience, i know that i need not ever fear slipping back into the past again because when i do, i’ll recognize it. So was that experience good or bad? The experience of not feeling extremely happy or confident when playing football? Most people would say, it was “bad”, but was it? I learned far more from it than at any other time, and its not just for football but all aspects of my life! A completely new, wonderful perspective! Freedom! Liberation! All from those six months of suffering! What a bargain!
Anyway, i’ve caught the psychic buzz again. I feel really excited at the prospect of meeting up, communicating with my spirit guides, having week-long lucid dreams cramped in a night’s sleep, projecting out of my body to visit all my friends and…enemies…yes…
no enemies of course….
yet.
(:
Anyway. I was looking past the previous files i had, and just noticed this gem of an ebook which i had but never had the interest to learn. Now that my vision has expanded and i can see life clearly now, there it was! Always there, but never knew it was there. Never knew i had, in my power, to end all my suffering. It basically describes a really good, accelerated way(according to the author) to activate and develop your entire energy body. And activating your energy body and developing it gives your lucid dreams far more energy and clarity, allows a heighted ability for astral projection and out of body experiences, makes your healing powers far greater(everyone can heal!), develops your chakras (which, amongst spiritual and psychic abilities, are crucially important in the function of your entire wellbeing, and ahhhhh many more benefits.
I’m on the preliminary exercises now and i’m doing pretty well. Maybe you’ll see more psychic ability posts in the near-future (;
Life gives us the opportunity to explore, to discover, to do, to eat, to be, to have, to achieve!
And how we burden it!
We burden life with our concepts of responsibilities, duties!
We burden it with our own self-image, our need to fit in, to conform!
We burden it with our decisions on how life should be and how it must be!
We burden it with our fears, our need for security, our fear. We avoid poverty, we avoid being poor, we avoid death, we avoid danger, we avoid this and that, and for what!?
Because we think they would make us unhappy!
But why do they have to!
We earn 30 million dollars, then try to cheat people out of another 30 million!? As if we could spend 30 million in our entire lifetime!
We uphold these “responsibilities” that we think we should be doing…without meaning to?
Open your eyes to the possibilities! They are everywhere! And if not, MAKE THEM!
Yes, most people take the normal step! But its the few who don’t that find life fun!
The great misconception!
That..the odds of me being this, achieving this, pursuing this is very low so i shouldnt go for it…
But where is the evidence!?
The evidence shows that less people take the path of fear! It doesn’t mean the path of fear is to be avoided! It means people are afraid of it!
And when your mind, that ILLOGICAL, IRRATIONAL part of you that ASSUMES and PRETENDS to be realistic, logical, and rational pulls you back into your myriad of fears…a life of security, conformity, normalcy…
Then ask it this question!
What would be the point of a life like that?
Well, hello there
Mmm okay, after posting lots of spiritual-inclined articles, i have decided to post an update of the changes in my life!!!
Yes, living in the moment, accepting what is, being present.
By living in the moment, i’ve realised where i had been going wrong for the past few years. I kept projecting myself in the future, trying to be where i wasn’t. I hit a wall, that is, i couldn’t move past a certain stage. I lost interest in lucid dreaming, astral projecting, focussing my energies on reaching a goal and then because i needed to achieve that goal so much, my life became a lot more unhappy especially when things didn’t seem to be going right
After reading The Power of Now, i realised i was trying to reach it to fulfill myself, as if achieving that goal meant i would have “made” it. I would have been fulfilled…or so i thought. I realised, there’s simply no point in trying to think that achieving a certain something would BE it. I would be perfect, would be fulfilled, would be who i wanted to be. And yes, it was a recurring pattern in my life. I became frustrated, trying to “fix” those problems, needing to “fix” those problems. I kept thinking about it, thinking “okay, i’ve got this. once i fix this, i will be happy”. And when it never got fixed, i just kept on suffering and suffering.
When i begin living in this moment, with the realisation that I ALREADY AM PERFECT, that THIS IS all that is. That nothing i achieve in the future would make me more “perfect” or more “whole”, only that i thought they would. And what a liberation it was! Not needing to achieve this, or achieve that! I lost the desperate need to “make” it, to be “someone”, to be someone other than who i was right now. I could still do things if i wanted to, i could still set goals and strive…but without the burden, the desperation, the frustration of NEEDING TO REACH AND ACHIEVE IT!
I could ENJOY the process and not just the outcome!
And rather than seeking, looking to the future, always needing something more, when i got that something, i could actually ENJOY IT! If all i did was seek for more, when i got that “something”, I WOULDN’T be able to enjoy it because i’d be looking for the next thing!
What freedom! What a wonderful lightness this brings to life! No burdens, no needs, NOTHING! All i needed to do was to BE myself and HOW HARD IS THAT?
By living in the present, i stopped projecting myself to the future and setting myself up for “excitement”, only to be disappointed when i didn’t get there. By not projecting myself into the past, i stopped being haunted by it, fearing that it would ‘come back”
By accepting what it is, i stopped becoming affected by everything! Well, maybe not completely unaffected yet, but the degree has lessened considerably. When people criticize me, i don’t feel the urge to retort, to defend. When they criticize me, i may feel uncomfortable for awhile and i feel that discomfort. Then, it lightens up and disappears and i can respond to the criticism in its true perspective and not a reaction to me feeling hurt.
By being present, i realised, there’s NO NEED to believe, to do, to conform to anything? Why do two people need to get married if they are so in love? Isn’t marriage something to make them more “secure”, sort of like a lock to keep them from going astray? If their love was so deep and true, what’s the need for marriage? To conform, yes. And the need to conform?!?!? To be “someone”? To need something outside of you to be happy inside!? INSANE! CRAZY! BUUT NORMAL!
And i don’t know how many of you believe this, but i feel really free of stress from Block tests. I don’t feel stressed at all, although there is this urgency to study. There is this feeling of needing to do what needs to be done. But no stress! I accept that some studying must be done, and so i do it! No stress! When i go out, i don’t need to care what people think of me! I can and do try sliding down the rails around the staircase, trying to wooo, slide down. I examine the ways to climb up a bus-stop and attempt to do so, although that particular bus-stop didn’t seem to be safe or easy to climb so i didn’t do it.
This sense of freedom just pervades your life, a feeling of lightness and being free to do whatever you want. And sometimes, the old voice comes in with a feeling of heaviness that goes “you still have responsibilities, you need to get a job, you need to eat”. But along the way, this voice has come up less and less and the feeling of heaviness has dissipated. Because there’s no need to get a job! Who says I HAVE responsibilities? The only responsibility i have is to myself! I don’t need to care about my mother or father hwen they grow old! I don’t need to worry and care what others think of me because i said that! But i CAN care and FEEL like taking care of them but i just don’t see it as a responsibility. I see it as something i want to do and feel like doing rather than something i should do. And isn’t that beautiful?
I don’t need to get a job! Who says i need to get a job!? What’s wrong with eating scraps off the table!? Only how society perceives you! And because i’m not identified, i’m not society’s person, it doesn’t matter! Of course, i don’t do so because i don’t have the need for it, as well as the awkwardness that still entails because i have not yet completely dissolved my ego. But it is possible, and there’s nothing right or wrong with it!
I’ve lost my fear of death also. Who says death is worse than being alive!? Who knows!? No one! Of course, this doesn’t mean i risk my life recklessly. I recognize that i still can enjoy it when while i live. But if it goes, it goes!
Being present, i begin to appreciate life more. I appreciate now. I can sense a beingness, an aliveness in inanimate objects. Yes. Be silent. Be silent in your mind. And see if you can sense a sort of being, a consciousness that holds the table together. It is there and i have sensed it, and it is a wonderful feeling to know all is connected.
DOWN TO EARTH
Okay, yes all the above is true. I have experienced all of those. But at the same time, there are moments, periods of time where i lose presence, where the old voice comes in. But looking back, comparing where i am to the past, i see that i am more prsent, more accepting. I’m not sure if i feel joy or happiness more regularly, but i am sure i feel unhappiness, frustration and negative emotions less regularly. That striving, looking towards the future, or wallowing in the past is still there, but less. Much less. And when it happens, i know what to do. I just bring my attention back to the present and feel the feeling. No need to distract myself from unhappiness, simply feel it and allow it to be. Wonderful isn’t it!
Yes, i have not been bs-ing, living in my own world. I hope to spread this possibility so people get to know aboout it. If they want to be more free, then they can know it is possible
To walk down the streets without a care of what you need to do, where you need to go, what people are seeing you as, what you are seeing people as
The freedom to be who you are
To live life without a care of the world around you, without needing to achieve this, or be haunted and limited by the past
To not need to suffer from resisting this moment
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go of this and that
Let go of your need to be this, this, and this
To achieve that and that
Because when you’re this
what’s next?
What’s the next “this” you need to be?
And when you’ve achieved that
What’s the next “that”?
Let go of the need to suffer
let of the need to be important, to stand out in this world
When someone cuts your queue, what is your reaction?
Now, look at the perspective from someone outside the queue
What is their reaction?
The reality is that someone cut the queue
Don’t make it into “your” problem
Life happens
It doesn’t happen to you
It happens
Life isn’t hard on you
Whether you exist or not
Life will be the same
Take action if you need to
Ask the person to be more considerate
But do so out of presence
Not out of anger
Or even a sense of righteousness
See whatever happens
It doesn’t happen to you, it happens
Then take action
and participate in what happens
How do you stop suffering?
Stop “striving”. Stop needing life to satisfy or fulfill you. Accept it as it is.
How do you stop?
What do you do when you feel that urge to strive
to be something else
to feel something else
What do you do?
You accept it
And how do you accept it?
By feeling it
Acknowledging it is there
Watching your thoughts
See your thoughts going “what the hell, why did he do that to me!?!?”
Rather than he doing something to you
Recognize that he did something
Not to you
Just doing that
Feel the desire to retort, feel the rush of anger
Anger is addictive isn’t it. When you feel it, you just don’t feel like putting it down.
Feel the anger. Or feel the embarassment. Feel it. Don’t look for something else. Feel how it feels.
That is acceptance
Recognizing it is there
And when you feel it
Don’t label it
Anger is not A, N, G, E, R
the letters A, N, G, E, R form a word that is only a label for the feeling
Feel the feeling without labels
Without needing it to be “THIS”!
Or to be “bliss”!
Let go of needing!
When projecting
thinking about the future
wallowing in the past
Pull your attention back into the present!
Whilst in class
Whilst you’re bored
Pull yourself into the present. Now. Accept wherever you are in. Be aware without labelling
No thoughts, no labels,
Just being
The being in the word human being
The first week of the June holidays felt crap. Here, we differentiate between feeling and judging.
When i first wrote it, the sentence was “June holidays was crap”
Then i remembered; non-judgement, things are the way they are, you make them this or that.
And it was. I felt like crap but it wasn’t crap. It taught me that something was wrong with my thinking or living and after re-reading the Power of Now and A New Earth, i’ve rediscovered my sense of inner peace and contentment.
Previously, i wanted, needed, sought enlightenment. I rejected the present. I wanted to BE ENLIGHTENED, to attain it. And it bothered me. When i meditated, i wondered whether i was doing it right, whether it was effective. I tried to work out the “best and fastest way to get enlightened”. I expected a great deal and…woo…most of the time they didn’t live up my expectations and i’d get frustrated.
And then i reread it and realised i had gone wrong. Lost the fucking plot.
Resisting, needing something to get better, be better. Okay, it was a little more advanced than seeking external forms but an internal form is still a form. Form is form and the form was enlightenment. Needed to reach that form.
But i found peace and the answer
THE ANSWER
is to accept what is
If you feel restless, troubled
feel it
Suppressing or trying to ignore/distract yourself from it is resisting it
Feeling it, letting it be there, is accepting
You recognize it is there, and fully let yourself feel the emotion
I think, people normally think that feeling it is suffering and avoid feeling it
Well, the only way to find out is to find out for yourself
For me, when i felt the discontentment and frustration, i found freedom by feeling and accepting it
And with that, inner peace came.
Today
i continued my meditation
And
throughout the day
i felt confused
discontented
not knowing what awareness watching awareness really meant
was it this or that
was i doing it right
or was my mind just fooling me
and when i thought i was doing it right
my mind said…maybe i’m doing it wrong
And it continued for a long time
and then around evening apathy hit me
a sense of
What is wrong
Why isn’t anything working
Why am i trying so hard
Why not just give up
And so
i Felt apathetic
lack of energy
not wanting to do anything
not feeling like doing anything
It was
suffering alright
Apathy
a feeling of
hopelessness
resignation
wondering whether this apathy will lead me to
i don’t know
enlightenment!?
and i laid there
letting my thoughts run about and even challenging my mind to hurt my own ego
LOL LOOK HOW EASILY MANI DRIBBLE PAST YOUUUUUUUUUU
YOU’LL GO BLIND. NEVER IMPROVE YOUR EYESIGHT
NEVER BE ENLIGHTENED. HOW HARD IS IT TO GET AWARENESS SEES AWARENESS
and
I also couldn’t seek fulfillment or distraction in anything else!!!!
Games wouldn’t do it. Tv wouldn’t do it. Nothing would distract me
enough
NOTHING
I couldn’t even fall back to where i was before
at least i could distract myself with something in the past
i laid on the couch for i think 1 hour plus
then my mom came home with dinner and i somehow got the energy to drag myself off the couch to eat it
AND WHEN I ATE THE FOOD
it was the same
oh during that period of apathy i just knew everything i previously aimed for was meaningless
THE ONLY MEANINGFUL THING WAS TO END THIS
BUT HOW
after that i laid on my bed again
and then my thoughts went to
I
know
i’m feeling discontented
expecting something better
that’s why i’m feeling unhappy
i want something better, i need something better
and how can i accept what is!?
NOW IS CRAZY
and then i remembered eckhart
don’t
resist the now
and if you can’t NOT resist it
if you can’t help but be discontented and having that sense of expectancy
then you can observe
AND THATS WHAT I DID
OBSERVED MY FUCKING SELF
Observed the restlessness, the discontentment, the apathy in me
WOOOOOOOO
and when i got off the bed
strange
i felt better
something
released in me
there was still some stuff in there
but
better
finally
i AM FEEEEELING WOZZZZZZZZZZZZY AND CRAZY NOW!!
I was like lying on my bed to do my AWARENESS WATCHING AWARENESS MEDITATION
and then i GOT INTO A RHYTHM
I THOUGHT I GOT IT
and then i thought WAIT IS THIS IT?!!?!?
HOW COME ITS SO EASY THIS TIME!?!?
IT WA SO HARD THE LAST TIME!?
SO THIS MUST NOT BE IT
CRAZY HUH!?
anyway
I JUST WENT FOR IT
and kept doing it even though i didnt know whether it was right or wrong and when i woke up i felt funnnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
NOT COMFORTABLE
NO NORMASL
i watched tv and it was showing how tihs guy tries to CHANGE HIS FATE BUT ENDS UP
MAKING IT WORSE
and it wassssssssssssssssss lololololipop
Then i went to eat my birthday cake
and as i ate itttttt i began to feel crazy
MMMMMMMM LET ME INDULGE AND EAT THIS CHOCOLATE CAKE
so i ate it and then i went into my room and expressed my crazy thoughts
i dECIDED
OH WAIT
before i say
there was an ant before i went to the room
and i had this urge to flick the ant off my arm
AND THEN I THOUGHT
If i can’T LET AN ANT BE
HOW CAN I LET LIFE BE!?!!??
AND THEN THE CRAZINESS STARTED
i went into the rooooooom and as the thoughts came in
SOME I LAUGHED AT
others i giggggggled at heheheehe
i forgot what were my giggly thoughts but i decidedddddd to let life be and if my mind was to go crazy
THEN LET IT BE
AND SO IT WAS
and then i wasn’t feeling good although i was feeling crazy
so i said
HEY MIND
SATISFY ME
COME ON
PLAY COMPUTER GAMES
OR EAT THE CHOCOLATE GAME
OR MASTURBATE
ANYTHING
SATISFY YOURSELF
and the WEIRD THING WAS I COULDN’T DO IT
I’D BE TALKING TO MYSELF “GO ON THE COMPUTER GAME”
BUT MY MIND DIDN’T FEEL LIKE IT LOL
SO FUNNY
NORMALLY I’D HAVE THIS URGE TO PLAY
BUT WHEN I ACTUALLY LET MY MIND DO WHATEVER IT WANTED IT DIDND’T WANT TO DO WHAT IT WANTED
oh i remember what i was thinking
i was thinking
AM I being CRAZY for the sake of enlightenemnt
to achieve a BETTER STATE?
AND THAT MADE ME LAUGH AND GIGGLE
and then i thought HEY I’LL POST THIS ON MY BLOG
TO ADDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ON
to my!?!?
okok
anyway i left the room and then continuedddddddddddddd
and then i went back into he room and tunred the computer on
my mom began talking about my subjects and my future
AND I LET MY CRAZINESS POUR OUT
SHE SAID
DO YOU THINK ABOUT IT
AND I SAID
THINK ABOUT WHAT
SHE SAID
THINK ABOUT YOUR FUTURE, WHAT YOU CAN BE WITH THE SUBJECTS YOU CHOSE
I SAI
D
YEA
CLEANER
OR ROAD SWEEPER
SHE SAID
WHAT RUBBISH I MEAN SERIOUSLY
I SAID
SERIOUSLY OR DID I
SHE SAID
WHEN YOU GROW UP YOU NEED MONEY TO PAY FOR YOUR HOUSE AND BILLS AND FOOD AND YOU WON’T HAVE A GOLDEN SPOOON
I SAID
THEN I;LL DIE
AND THEN WHAT
SHE SAID
WHAT RUBBISH,
BUT SHE DIDN’T REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY
BECAUSE
I SAID
IF I DIE I DIE
WHO GIVES A SHIT LOL
WHO SAYS DEATH IS BETTER THAN LIFE
and then i came here
before i came here i did some funny shit toooooo
ffdssssssssss
yes
crazy
and am i feeeling good?
feeling more enlightened?
no!
nope!
i feel like
im dangling between nothing and nothing
nothing to have
nothing to work for
and im asking IS THIS THE TRUE MEANING OF SURRENDER
WHEN EVEN WHEN YOU KNOW WHAT’S WRONG, YOU STILL CAN’T DO THE RIGHT THINGS
HAAAAHAHAHAH
back to the computer
hrmph
yes yes
i dont knowwhat’s oging to happen next
i dont feel happy
dont feel sleepy
i want to find fulfillment
be it in games or food
but they’re not working
AHAH
my mind doesn’t want them anymore
so now
im like stuck
I CAN’T FIND FULFILLMENT IN THE PAST
THE FUTURE
THE PRESENT
IN ANYTHING EXTERNAL
OR INTERNAL
OR
….
BEEM
only a crazzzzzzzy mind can write thissssssss
oh yes
one more point
i was thinking
if i let my mind be and go crazy with it
doesn’t that mean i’m being present
CAN I BE MORE PRESENT THAN NOW
THAN QUESTIONING AND TRINYG TO FOLLOW ITS CRAZY HOUGHTS
NO
THIS IS THE MOST PRESENT I CAN BE
HAHA
I’VE DONE IT
.
.
what
Okay
I talked about letting life be
And the decision came, already made to me
I just realised the gameplay of frisbee didn’t appeal to me and the decision was not to go
And i had a really cool dream
I dreamt that i was chit yin’s boyfriend!
It was something like this
We were supposed to choose dance partners or something
And there was supposed to be a special connection, a perfect pair. something like the wand and the wizard and harry potter
And the girls did the choosing
The first girl held my hand and nope, i wasn’t it
Then chit yin held my hand and yes it was!
And then i don’t remember exactly how it transcended from dance partner to boyfriend but that was it anyhow
Also
Grease the Groove is an effective training method
And
I think i confirm! have moved up from courage to maybe acceptance or something
But i think the levels of consciousness may not be extremely accurate
And
I know how to get enlightened!!!!
Cheers!!!!
And i feel like totally remaking my blog!
LIKE ORGANIZING IT BETTER
So
I MAY do it
I realised i have no fear of death now
Which is cool
Also
Ahh
BACK to the process of enlightenment
People normally go through different feelings depending on the situation. Sometimes they feel superior, sometimes they feel inferior. And then there are some people who seem to have more than others and feel superior most of the time. We normally call these people proud people.
Some proud people are bad at hiding their proudness whereas some manage to rein it in so as not to appear too obnoxious. However, in the trained eyes of someone who has incredible emotional intelligence and vibrational feelings, all is clear for one to see. And nowadays, i find proud people more and more funny.
Proud people sometimes indicate that they feel another is inferior. They do so in varying degrees, sometimes through indirect means, sometimes through more direct measures. They may do so by refusing to give a person they deem inferior the respect they deserve, or outright say that they despise xxx.
I find it funny because whenever they show these signs of arrogance, i automatically shut a part of myself to them. And i am feeling that a lot of people do the same. I shut off part of myself because i don’t want to interact with the person. I don’t want to pretend to be friendly with him while at the same time, disapproving his arrogance. I know some people who can be nice people and yet arrogant. Some of them are my acquaintances, some of them are my friends but easily, the less arrogant you are, the more i’ll respect you.
Another funny thing is that proud people think people envy them. While i suspect that may is certainly true, i am moving towards the state where i really think there’s no big deal. You can be this and that, achieve this and that, but this too, will pass. They are often big fish in small ponds and there are never any big oceans. In the light of the vastness of the universe and eternity, nothing is big, significant, or important. The most significant and important thing is to find significance and importance in the smallest, most insignificant things. What is that? Possibly, nothing. If you don’t get that part, it’s okay. I didn’t get it the first time i read it too.
And so, you gain this and this and gain the admiration of this and this and then what? What’s the next step? How do i step higher, go higher, gain even more, to be the top. And when you fail, or when you see even more superior persons, you suffer and why do you suffer? You suffer because you created your own suffering. You judged yourself on how others judge you, you valued yourself on the value of your accomplishments and achievements. Isn’t that funny?
I know, i know. I can laugh at my past self now. And probably will be laughing at my present self in the future.
The ladder of pride is never-ending. There can be only one at the top. And you will always be inferior to the one on top. You may be superior to the rest but you are still…lousier than that one. And to the people that matter, you will be a kind of joke.
Most of us are proud people. Some are more proud than others. The prouder one gets, the funnier it gets.
